Some take to the hills.

Driven by worries about tomorrow, time is spent preparing for what you fear will be. Self-sufficiency  carries its own curse, wasted time. How does one prepare for an unexpected event ordained by God or devised by the devil? We have no control of the future nor promise of tomorrow. Remember the story of the rich man who built bigger barns to store his stuff? Others ate what he had stored. He came to his end, he lost control. Self-sufficiency labors in vain without God.

The prudent thing to do.

Depend on Jesus now. For the big things and the little things. Make your choices trusting that He has guided you, because you depended on Him. Get use to knowing that He is there by watching Him provide for your every need. Why wait until you’re desperate, Jesus is our sufficiency. I know it’s hard to let go. At one time I thought highly of myself…. picture Superman. Well not quite, but I thought I was in control.


Things not expected.

Some things we prefer not to imagine. Other things are beyond our imagination. These are the events we are not prepared to encounter. A heart attack instantly awakens the self-sufficient to reality. My existence depended on God’s will. I was forgiven and at peace. Grace spoke, “You will live, Caron needs you.”  God named His purpose for His grace to me, Caron, my wife. Years passed, then came the day I found her lifeless body lying on the bathroom floor. The unimagined knocked me to the ground.

The shock of God’s will left me without purpose. Weeks of insanity then months of prayer. I cried out to Him groaning in prayer. All I could think to ask was, “What is my purpose now, Lord? What do you want me to do!

“In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.” (Romans 8:26-27)

For five months there was silence. Then He spoke. “Look within.” I did and realized that I wanted to live. This is what God wanted me to do. To live! Now you know why I write. My purpose is to live for Him.

“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)