Given it all I got.
“Deep calls to deep at the sound of Your waterfalls;
All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me.
The Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime;
And His song will be with me in the night,
A prayer to the God of my life.” (Psalm 42-7-8NASB)
That’s what I want, to be swept away by God in prayer, but it’s not like that. Sometimes I’m afraid to come. It must be that. Why would I avoid Him? My fear is not of God, but a fear of my unworthiness. Silly, I know. It’s not about me, it’s about Christ. He made this possible and He says we can come to the Father and ask.
Before JESUS’ Throne
It’s the “come to the Father” that slows me down. He is awesome and holy, all mighty and all knowing. The more growth the more reverence in approaching His throne. It’s the “All knowing” that slows me down, as it should. Best to come clean. Prayer starts by visiting Jesus concerning stubborn sin. The best we can do is agree with Him. He promised to forgive and change us from within. Now faith can come before our Father’s throne.
Before GOD”s Throne
Now thoughtfulness speaks, slowly at first, just thoughts swimming in the air. Like a western cowboy I round them up and give them to God. I know that’s not very professional, I didn’t come with a list and with an eloquent and lengthy address. I just showed up, me talking to God. Am I nervous? You bet! My faith is small, and leaves no room for doubt to creep in unaware. So there’s my confession, I need to relax. God is my Father. There is no need for me to be nervous, He knows that I believe.
May your prayer for others be blessed.